What am I Doing!?!

Ok....we all know that smoking is bad. I have seen all the warnings, articles, commercials and pictures of black lungs just as you probably have. I have even watched several family members die from smoking-related problems, but I can remember as a little girl rifling through the ashtray of my grandmother's old gray Ford. I'd pretend to smoke; half disgusted and half curious, but longed for my grandmother to quit. I'd make every deal I could think of to convince her to quit. None of those deals quite worked out and she passed away in 2009.

I never, ever thought that years later I would be the full-on smoker. Now it is my daughter striking deals with me to quit and I am totally ashamed. How did this even happen?

Oddly, I became my full-on smoker self right about the time I was diagnosed with PCOS. I often wondered why smoking seemed to increase my weight while others talked about how it kept it off. Well, here is yet another reason smoking is bad for me (duh!)

Smoking's Effect on PCOS

What am I doing to myself?!I have got to quit smoking! I would love any comments, tips or stories to help me quit. Anyone?

As for now, I am almost finished reading The Easy Way to Stop Smoking. It makes some great points, but I don't know that I am convinced quitting is easy quite yet. We will see how it goes (fingers crossed).


Here are some smoking quotes I enjoy:

The believing we do something when we do nothing is the first illusion of tobacco. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson (I <3 Emerson)>

Every citizen who stops smoking, or loses a few pounds, or starts managing his chronic disease with real diligence, is caulking a crack for the benefit of us all.
Mitch Daniels (Don't know who this is, but AMEN brother!)

Giving up smoking is the easiest thing in the world. I know because I've done it thousands of times.
Mark Twain (This will be my last attempt tyvm)